I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, TheLonelyChemist Please don't give up. This must be very hard for you. Try to hang on. I'm sure you'll be able to achieve your dream. I agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could. You've been given some great advice in this thread. I'd suggest to follow it if you can. You can learn skills later in your life. You're constantly learning in life. Don't give up hope! I hope things will get better soon for you. I'm sure you'll be able to achieve wonderful things. Believe in yourself. You're a wonderful person. Stay strong, TheLonelyChemist. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this