Leia
I'm sorry you're feeling so down. Please hold tight though, ok? And please, please, please do not act on your feelings. Firstly, because just don't. You may not think so right now, but people would be devastated. Also, so much could go wrong and you could seriously mess yourself up -- damaging organs for instance. Personally, I find it helpful to remember just how bad the consequences could be. For either outcome.

Please stay safe.

If you don't feel safe, please seek help, ok?