Hi everyone! My friend from out of town visited last night and I felt really great talking to her last night and this morning before she left. Work was decent. I was supposed to swim but the pool was closed so I will go again another day this week. I tried to make dinner, but various things happened along the way, and right now I am drinking a smoothie instead haha. I won't bother you with the details.
On another note, I question if I can ever forgive myself for all the mistakes I have made in the past. They just keeping blindsiding me out of nowhere and it's pretty dreadful. I know they are all my responsibility, I just sometimes feel like I somehow ended up with a broken compass, then one day woke up to that and was like oh my..I have been walking the wrong way this whole time. But, thing was, I was trying to walk the right path, it was not an intentional thing I just ended up going off course by accident. I put a lot of effort into trying to go the right path. So I am just frustrated at myself. Welp, I've got the rest of my life with myself, so might as well try to make friends.