Updated:
As the previous appointment with my psychiatrist was cancelled bc he reduced his schedule, the appointment was yesterday.
I have opposite feelings about how things went but maybe I’m doing a mountain of a single grain of sand.
I felt very proud of myself because I told him that I would like to tell him a couple of things I kept to myself because I felt shame and I told him how much I was concerned to treat this in order to deep down my diagnosis in case it was necessary with the new information. I apologised him for hiding this information and I told him that I have taken notes.

He seemed to understand me and was pretty receptive.
As I took some notes in order to avoid forgetting important things (not many, only the most meaningful facts since he is the one who can make the best and the needed questions for a diagnosis purpose).
He told me that he needed these notes summarised (he didn’t know how long my notes were) and after the summary, I have to do a diagram).

You can guess now me being so insecure and perfectionist as I am, questioning about if I’m gonna be able to do the diagram suitable or not, well or wrong for the purpose.
I don’t know why I take it with so many doubts.
While walking back home I was making myself all kind of questions: Maybe, he doesn’t want to give me more labels? Maybe, he got upset bc I wasn’t ready to share with him some things until now? Maybe he doesn’t need much more information and he believes I’m gonna make him lose his time? Maybe, he doesn’t feel competent to go deep down bc he is not a therapist.
I made him clear that I need it in order to go on working with a psychologist and by myself.
I thought, if someone is my patient and tells me that (s)he wants to give me a relevant information in order to go on working, I would be more than happy to have a person in front of me that trust me and need to be guided.
Maybe, I’m thinking a lot. What I have clear is that I’m gonna do this diagram even if it’s the last thing I do in this life.