I am not going to socialize. The damage has been already done. Nobody will tell me this because they know committing suicide or baiting suicide is illegal. So yes, I am not going to a life that I always wanted.

In fact, it's a fact I lack skills required to become a scientist... and none of this is even my fault... so yes, my life's a waste. All I ever wanted to do, was just to heal people. But let's go according to a saying, how are you going to save others when you couldn't save yourself?

So yes, screw becoming a scientist, having friends, partners and family. Screw all of this. I have almost no hope.

But hey, at least I tried.,, and it's sufficient.