I had to cancel my dentist appointment Tuesday morning to take my bf to a cardiology evaluation. Later this morning, Wed., I will get to my dentist. Then I have to take my bf back to hospital for another heart test and an Xray. I'm drinking Alka-Seltzer now at 4 a.m. because I'm queazy from the slightly too big glass of wine I had with dinner. That seems to be the one bright spot in my daily routine - dinner and a glass of wine. I feel like a hamster in one of those wheels. My bf goes from one health crisis to the next. It's unrelenting. I feel consumed.

I'm not really depressed, which is good. I just feel spent.