Nope, morning is not bringing any better feelings. I have 8ish hours to decide to cancel my appointment tomorrow. At this moment, I don't want to talk to you and I don't want to hear your voice. So, what's the point of going. 2 things are keeping me from canceling. 1. will I want to see you tomorrow or be mad at myself for canceling? 2. do I want you to "chase me" and if you don't, how will I feel about it?

I don't think I want you to "chase me", I'm not sure.