I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, pandabear0927 I understand how you feel. Perhaps you're suffering from social anxiety. Perhaps you just don't like large crowds of people. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings. Hopefully he/she will be able to help you. He/she's there to help you after all. I'm so sorry. It must be very hard for you. Please don't give up. You're definitely not alone in this. I'm sure you'll be able to get through this. You just need to believe in yourself a bit. Just try to do your best. That's all you can do after all. I'd sugges to buy some self-help books on anxiety if you can. Maybe that could help. I'd also suggest to try yoga or other relaxation exercises if you can. Maybe that could help. I'd suggest to think about something else and try to find yourself some distractions when you're outside and you feel anxious if you can. Anything that may help you reduce your anxiety and stress. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. You deserve to get better and to feel good. You deserve to live a good life like everyone else. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this Do you have a support system IRL? Any friend or family members that you can reach out to? Either way, we're here for you if you need it. We're here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you need or want. You know we won't judge you. You're a wonderful person. You're definitely a strong bear I'm so sorry you're hurting so much Remember that you're stronger than you think. You've got this. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Stay strong, pandabear0927. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're a wonderful person. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this