first the confession ...

when I was little I had a " blankly " ... it relieved my stress ... and just felt good ... feeling the coolness of it ... just holding it ...

now the confession...

when I was bigger I have a " pillow " .... it relieves my stress ... it just feels good ... feeling the coolness of it ... just turning it over and over in my hands ...

I know it hurts no one and is super mild to what I could enjoy .... but it still feels wrong ...
I want to hide it and feel quilty ...

I really believe that " pillow " , could do as much for me as xanex ...

now the don't laugh question ... anybody else ... wanta confess .... or is it just me ....

ps; as I age it seems what matters to me becomes simpler and simpler ...