I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Dnester I have already replied to your other thread on this subject. I agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could. You've been given some great advice on this thread. I'd suggest to try to follow it if you can. Like Osheedee has already wisely said, you're not a psychopath. If you would, you wouldn't come here asking for help. I'd say it's just a reaction you have. Perhaps it's an auotmatic reaction that you have to cope with stressful or tragic situations. You're definitely not alone in this, as this thread has already shown. I wouldn't worry too much about it. If you're concerned, I'd suggest to talk to your therapist about this and see how it goes from there. Hopefully she will be able to help you. You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings. Perhaps you could discover where this reactions is coming from. Remember that you're not a bad person. It's just a reaction you have. We can't always control our reactions to things. That doesn't make you a bad person. Remember that we're here for you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this