Hey Spikes, sorry to hear you are still having these strong thoughts. Im glad ECT was rescheduled for you. I know you said before you have no interest in going to the hospital but remember you can always change your mind. Do you have any friends or family you could call, obviously drama at group isnt what you need right now.

I really needed to see my Pdoc the other day so badly and drove over 5hrs for my scheduled appt only to be told she was on vacation. Thats rough not having them available when you need them most Im here if you need though