I went to group yesterday and didn't get a chance to talk because of some stupid ****ed up drama going on between the members. I'm still struggling but it seems to come and go, and sometimes its more depressive and sometimes its more mixed, and sometimes (rarely) I'm fine. I was even singing "I wanna be sedated" today in the car so that's making me feel like I'm not unwell at all and just making stuff up.
I need to reschedule my ECT again to next week. I find it hard to tell them if I'm struggling because its real easy for them to put me IP and Ive never really opened up before with good results. I also dont want more recent ECT considering I'm going back to work soon and I want to be able to do my job, which I cant if I'm post-ECT confused.
Oh well. Maybe itll get rescheduled again.