Yeah. Fortunately other people thinking I CANT do things makes me put more effort into proving that I CAN. Both to them and importantly to myself.

But I do wonder if Im just setting myself for disappointment by refusing to accept... less. But I cant. I cant just give up. I have to know that I tried the hardest I could.

Things come slower to me on medication- and faster without. Unfortunately TOO many things come to me off medication. So it comes down to- do I want to be overwhelmed or underwhelmed. And it really is a hard decision.

But for now, it is one that I have to accept. And I am trying