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Originally Posted by falcon09
My toilet overflowed this morning and for some reason that made me fill with so much anxiety. I called my landlord for maintenance and then went to my grandmothers.
I was so anxious that I threw up at my grandparents.
I'm not gonna go back until it's fixed, and 7 hours later it's apparently not fixed yet, I just called to check.
Why does it take so long to fix damn plumbing, and why am I an anxious wreck over it.
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I understand this. Something broke in my apartment last year and I had to call maintenance. I put it off for two months because I was so anxious. I called and he came and fixed it in like 5 minutes then left. I was so relieved.
Then I had an issue a couple years ago where half my ceiling had to be replaced due to a leak and water damage, it ended up taking like a few months of the summer. It was so horrible for me , I pretty much stayed out from the morning till around 6 pm every single day because I was too scared to be there and I knew their work shift ended then. I don't like people being in my apartment, even people I know. I don't even like people knocking on my door.
Anyway, I had to call yesterday for something minor and I had some hesitation but I just did it and the problem was taken care of right then.
I think my fear is people judging me or thinking I don't clean enough and getting me evicted. My place is very organized and clean. It's an irrational fear, but I think it comes from growing up being homeless most of the time, so I have a massive fear of being evicted even if there's no actual reason I would be.
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Diagnosis:
Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type
PTSD
Social Anxiety Disorder
Anorexia Binge/Purge type