Never alone, Tryingtobehappy -- we are here. There's no need to isolate from others, maybe even especially us -- after all, we get it.

I'm sorry your H isn't being more supportive, but it isn't necessary for your success. YOU can do it. And you don't have to do it alone. (Which isn't to say you don't need to do the work of trying to make the better decision. No one can do that for you. But it's one decision at a time to opt for the healthier thing, whether it is physical or mental. Perfection not required, it is the striving, the moving towards your goal.). You've got support here and from your T and pdoc. Sounds like a pretty good team.

You can do it, and you are so worth it. Even if it doesn't feel that way right now. Remember, not only your T and pdoc, but people from around the world(!!) are rooting for you!