This morning I woke up utterly exhausted for the sixth day in a row. This makes it near impossible to function until I wake. It can take me hours to feel awake. And by awake I mean stopping slurring, staggering and clearly being unable to drive. I have dropped my Seroquel to 50 mg at night but it seems hit and miss. Even if I get 12 hours sleep I wake up 'drunk'. This led me to have to cancel going to class this morning, even though it was a 12.30 pm start. It takes over half an hour each way to drive there and I just didn't feel safe doing this.
Anyway, with my mood tanking, and clearly struggling to get to class on Friday. On Tuesdays I only have a long drive there as I stay at my parents that night and they live ten minutes from university. Also it seems I may not be able to manage just two units. It is an embarrassment. That is only a quarter of a full-time load. I have just come out of the worst psychotic mixed episode I have ever had. Maybe I just need more time and space to recover? Maybe I should push through and find that I can cope with the load?
What do you guys think?
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features
PTSD
"Phew! For a minute there I lost myself."
'Karma Police' by Radiohead
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