i love how no one responded to this LOL. i wish i was in the same place when i wrote it. but all of that went away. I have no action to get at moment. It will come back though. cycling is hell. i thought it would never come back and has been gone long, long time. exhuasted but can't sleep. slept mostly for a few weeks before. then was briefly healed and perfect. maybe i can channel Teddy into my dreams, if can get to sleep tongith.