Rather scared and excited all wrapped into one. I am taking a big leap of faith later today and am doing my best to muster the courage to face it. I am excited though to as it will mean doing and accomplishing something I have wanted to do - but been too frightened of embarrassment - for years. This is, pardon the expression, crazy. Here I am being the ultimate in anxiousness, specifically concerned about what people may think of me yet I am this afternoon jumping in neck deep and purposely placing myself in the position of being critiqued. This is so very hard and makes for a lot to cope with today. I just have to get through the next few hours.