Im so stressed out.

I was supposed to work 3 days this week but i had to cancel all my hours so i could care for xena. Shes still not eating. Only drinking. Vet said if shes not eating its not good. But they also said it would cost thousands to put her in the hospital for them to do what we are doing. So they basically said just keep force feeding her etc.

I have an interview on webcam today. I really dont wanna do it. At all. I really couldnt care less...

...but...
I paid my half of all the important bills. Which leaves me with 170. I got another 2 bills to pay at the end of the month. I have NO money for groceries or gas. So basically, we have money to pay our bills but not the “important extras” like gas and groceries. At least i dont. I will get money from the bf for that. He will have to pay for groceries and my gas.

After all my bills COMPLETELY...i am left with 80 or so dollars. Thats why im applying for jobs. But i just dont give a fck right now.

And we are looking into buying a home. Its far off tho. Not til this lease is up. BUT my mom said we should start the process now since we have to be pre-approved for a loan BEFORE we can even look at houses.

So theres that. Ive been busy as a bumfxk.