I was talking to T on the phone today and he said, "I hesitate to say this over the phone because you know I like to talk about certain things face to face, but it seems that when you get angry at me it overwhelms your and overrides all of the other emotions you have for me-- is that wrong?"

So I said, "Actually, it is wrong-- but I have good news for you!" I said to him, "This is the first time that I have been able to hold two opposing feelings for you at the same time. I am angry at you, yet I don't believe it is going to ruin our relationship. I still feel absolutely, securely attached to you and continue to experience loving feelings towards you."

Then I sighed. Big.

He seemed taken aback; not in a bad way, just in the way that he probably wasn't expecting me to have this realization. He said he really wanted to think about the things I said, put the connections together, and talk about it tomorrow in session.

He told me to come early so we could have a full two hours.

Boy am I going to miss him next week.