I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, tecomsin I agree with what Brentus and piano97 have already wisely said better than I ever could. If you're feeling angry, listening to music is definitely a good solution. I'd also suggest to buy a punching bag if you can. You could vent your anger there. I'd also suggest to try out yoga if you can. It can be really helpful, especially if you're struggling with anger and depression. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. You don't deserve it at all. I hope things will get better soon for you. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with you feelings. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. You deserve to get better and to feel good. You deserve to live a good life just like everyone else. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. We're here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. You know we won't judge you here. I promise you that. Stay strong, tecomsin. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're a wonderful person. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this