I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Thirty shades I completely agree with what mote.of.soul has already wisely said better than I ever could. I'd suggest to find some distractions if you can. Sometimes the best way to fight pain is to just avoid it for a while. Please don't give up. Depression is an hard beast to fight. I'm sure you'll be able to get through this. Take all the time you need. Just take it one step at the time. Take baby steps. I'm so sorry. It must be very hard for you. Stay strong, Thirty shades. Stay safe and take care fo yourself. You're a wonderful person. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this