Do you consider what is going on with your therapist "arguing"? Is that actually what is going on? Or is that your internal interpretation? If that is actually what is going on, that really isn't therapy; perhaps a different therapist is in order. If that is your interpretation, then that is what you need to discuss in therapy. Not what he is doing that you don't like, but rather, why do you tend to set up situations of argument with your therapist? You don't like arguing, but you repeatedly set up points of argument with your therapist, often a criticism of him, almost like you are trying to get a rise out of him. Even your suicide note was, in your own words, meant to hurt him. You were setting up conflict for some reason. What do you get out of that? Might be worth thinking about. We almost always do things because we are getting something out of it (may not be something positive, but it somehow satisfies some internal desire or need, again not always a positive need). Just an observation.