Had a really bad day yesterday (Friday). By the evening I wanted to harm myself. I got close but managed to keep control. This has scared me though. This morning I am feeling calmer. I hope it is a better day. Next Thursday I see my pdoc. I think I can make it till then but hope things improve by then. See my T Wednesday as well so I should be ok. If I have another crisis in between I guess I will have to put in my safety plan but I really don’t want to go IP. I just started university.