Yesterday was hell as I previously posted. Today I am feeling relatively calm and have no self-destructive urges. I had been a little hypomanic so a few days of depression is to be expected. Hopefully this return to stability means my meds are working. Hope has returned that I will be able to get through university this semester well. Minor ups and downs are expected. I just dread major mixed episodes. I am on three major meds at high doses with almost no side effects. May they work their magic and give me some peace.