Got the scale out of my car trunk. Trying to prepare myself mentally for what it's going to say. I want to accept my weight and not beat myself when it's more than what I think is acceptable. And I know it is more than what I feel I should weigh already because I was weighed at the doctor last week. It doesn't make me a bad person or any negative adjectives. I'll use it as a baseline for further weigh-ins because I need to watch it for my health's sake and only that reason. I am a good, worthwhile, pleasant person no matter what I weigh.

Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,