Why is it that if you get REALLY depressed on an evening/night it drags on for what seems like forever?
All I wanna do is sleep... to shut out all this mess and shut down for a few peaceful hours. But, of course, the depression won't let me sleep. I feel sick and numb, can hear noises in my head, sometimes voices, and I just don't feel human or like I'm here at all. Every time I close my eyes, it's distressing and the noises are louder. My head feels like it's floating, like I've got pins and needles. All I want to do is sleep, make it go away, but it won't. I know how to make it go away... but I can't give in to it... got to fight. My chest starts to hurt and I feel terrible... the anxiety distracts me from the depression in a way and I 'calm down' although I don't feel calm... ears and head are still tense, can feel my pulse, and I'm now freezing. I've been like this at least 2 hours tonight, seems like more... but at least it's over. Exhausted from being so depressed and anxious, here's my chance to sleep.