a few days ago I got a perfect night sleep ... 8 hours with my cpap and awoke 2 minutes before my alarm ... just perfect ... first in a long time ...

why does it seem to be so boring ... my getting up 3 or 4 times a night ... is so my normal it feels right ... where the "right" ... is now my normal ... will the " normal " ever feel right again ...

is there a " thing or activity " that seems so normal now that to go back to " normal " ... would seem wrong ...

I find myself enjoying the rising each night ... maybe I am part vampire ...