Hello everyone! Thanks for all the kind messages and advice Part of me taking some time to respond was anxiety related. Even on a forum I have social anxiety issues.

For those that asked, I do have an individual therapist but she specializes more in general issues then phobias. And I take klonopin as an anxiety medication but I am very weary of increasing the dosage as I know its addictive.

I am going to look into exposure therapy like some people mentioned here. I think this is primarily a avoidant behavioral thing. But this all helped me to see that I'm not alone, and honestly its what I need right now!