So I seem to all of you like a lost cause. It sounds like if I was very naive. I do understand my codependence - trait. I do work on it.

If it comes to my boyfriend, he went to the therapy. He talks there about me, his past relationships, his parents, childhood, etc. He did tell her he wanted to go, because he sees our potential and wants to work on his issues to be able to create with me a strong, mature relationship. The situation between us improved. I still do not know where all of this will go, but there is this tiny light at the end of the tunnel.

We are very honest with each other. We tell each other about our fears, worries, triggers etc

He asked me to go back with him to his country in April to meet his parents. He will be changing his job soon and asked me to move out of the city we live in together. For now I am saying to just wait, see where he will land and then we will discuss what are the next steps.

I am taking it a day at a time.

I do not want to give false hope to people out there dealing with commitment - phobes because it is difficult, the push/pull stuff, but If they want to work on themselves, if they realize their issues maybe through hard work you can deal with that?