The more I try the deeper and deeper I go.
Starting with psychically being cut down even further then mentally.
I just don't care.
Saying for years if something happens who would care for the house.
Not to mention where we would live.
So the house falls down around me. There is only so much can do (not much actually)
So my mind is saying just stay in bed until you get better inside and out.
If I do get up my body betrays me.
So here I sit in bed