I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Mysterygirl202 Try to hang on. It must be very hard for you. I'm sure your friend didn't want to betray your trust. I'm sure she still loves you as much as before. There are just some things that we don't feel comfortable sharing with even the closest people to us. It has nothing to d with you. It's not your fault. If you want to see the bright side, she did tell you in the end. That means that she must REALLy love you and trust you! Be proud of yourself for that. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. I'm sure your relationship with her will grow even stronger after this affect. Just try to cope with the pain right now. It will pas. It won't be easy. It will take time. But it can be done. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your feeling. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. You deserve to get better and to feel good. You deserve to live an happy life just like everyone else. We're here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. You know we won't judge you. I promise that. You're a wonderful person, I'm sure of that. Stay strong, Mysterygirl202. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Try to hang on. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you and your friend. Is there anything we can do help you and her? Please let us know. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you and your friend. I'm so sorry you both have to go through all of this