The problem is that he will have to change his job because of the situation with Brexit and what it does to the companies here, not because he wants to... and he gets offers from all over the world (he is a highly trained professional). The situation at his job is terrible. Constant pressure, no matter how much you work, it is never enough plus they fire someone every day, you never know If next day when you go there, you are not next... So he is pretty depressed. I told him from the beginning that at some point I wanna leave the UK (we both live our lives that way - moving to a different country every couple of years, which we thought was amazing when we met, we finally met this second half who wants to live the life the same way), but at this point I want to stay for maybe a year more, so he looks here. Now the situation has gotten even worse, as I said I will not move to even a different city with him.

He wants me at some point to move with him to his country. He said once he gets a job offer, he will push for them to pay for my language studies, If they want him. So he is pretty serious about all of that.

At this point it would have been perfect for us If he stayed here longer, If we had more time. If he rented a flat here by himself (he has a flatmate) and I would just visit whenever I feel like that. At some point we would see what happens. But the issues with his job are becoming major, I also do not want to force him to stay in this hell, just because I am too afraid to go with him anywhere. So as you see it is all pretty complex and difficult.

If it comes to the holiday with his family. I think If it is his idea and now it has been 7 months, I might do it.

From my side I must admit, it is all heavy on me. He is never mean to me anymore. I mean he gets stressed, pissed off at stuff, but whenever I see his anger (not directed at me but in my presence), I just try not to react, and he apologises profoundly that I had to see him like that. As you can see, he is really trying. He is the one offering all these things - to go with him wherever he goes with friends, family etc and I accept or I do not, saying I do not have time or do not feel like that. But for me it is painful when he distances himself emotionally as I have lost the feeling of safety around him. I never know anymore if he needs space or if he has doubts about us.

My therapist says that his full honesty and his therapy are ground breaking, that I should believe in him, because what he does is big. My parents love him even though my mother is very aware of all the things that happened.