Hey, Neriz, I got to finish it and, like many others so much of the way you feel has echos within my own life.
You plunged in and I admire you for that, even though the depression thoughts were telling you 'they won't want to read this, let alone finish it, its stupid and boring' - you did it !!!! And we read it all !!!!!! And can relate to you !!!!! And we care !!!!!

I have hated my looks for many years. I can't even bring myself to tell ppl what is wrong because then they will have power over me and can use it to hurt me. I did have plastic surgery 9 years ago and it helped a bit but the feelings are still there. I have never met anyone who feels this way - but then a lot of ppl don't know it about me, I hide it.

It can be a relief to find somewhere that you can be yourself, depression, low self esteem and all - but I am realising myself that I can do that here. I hope you can too ......Poppet

I see you like the smilies too !