I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Bipolarchic14 I agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could. I'm not sure about Bipolar, but I do believe Depression can make you feel more irritable as a person. I also agree with your therapist and with yellow_fleurs that it may be Anxiety. After all, you've mentioned that this happens in large crowds. I also agree with Gabyunbound. We're all different, so perhaps this is just one of your personality traits. I'm glad you have some coping skills that you can use. Just try to do your best. That's all you can do after all. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this