Hello Melen: Thank you for sharing your concern here on PC.
I see this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central.
The sexual addictions sub-forum is another place you may want to check out here on PC. Here's a link to that one:
https://forums.psychcentral.com/sexual-addictions/
I'm sorry I don't think I really have a lot of insight into your dilemma. It sounds to me as though what may be necessary here is for you to come to some conclusion with regard to whether or not you can accept what your bf is doing. If the thought of what he's doing makes you feel physically sick to think about, perhaps this is just not a relationship you can sustain? I don't know of any simple way to move on & just stop thinking about it. Perhaps some individual therapy for yourself might be of some help with figuring out where to go with this.
There is help out there for internet porn addiction. However your bf has to recognize he has a problem & to want treatment. From what you wrote it doesn't sound as though he is there, at least not yet. Here are links to 3 articles, from Psych Central's archives, which consist of an interview with Noah Church who speaks & writes on the subject of internet porn addiction. Perhaps reading through these 3 articles will be of some help with regard to putting your bf's situation into perspective. I've also included links to 3 articles on the subject of how to stop ruminating & let go of stuck thoughts. I'm not sure, myself, that simply figuring out how to let go of the thoughts you're struggling with is really the answer here. But perhaps some of the suggestions in these articles can be of some help at least on an interim basis:
What It's Like to Be a Porn Addict? An Interview with Noah Church (Part 1)
What It's Like for an Addict to Quit Using Porn? An Interview with Noah Church (Part 2)
Understanding Porn Addicts: An Interview with Noah Church (Part 3)
9 Ways to Free Yourself from Ruminations
https://psychcentral.com/blog/8-tips...dium=popular17
https://psychcentral.com/blog/9-ways...tuck-thoughts/
I hope you find PC to be of benefit.
