I'm so sorry you're going through all of this, Dnester It must be very hard for you. I completely agree with what TrailRunner14 has already wisely said better than I ever could. Try to write these thoughts down as much as you can. I'd suggest to bring them up to your therapist. I'd suggest to talk to her about this and see how it goes from there. Hopefully she will be able to help you. I'd encourage you to bring the notes you write down to you and discuss them with her. I hope things are going ok with your therapist. She's there to help you after all. I'm so sorry. It must be very annoying and even scary for you. I hope you'll be able to calm down these thoughts. Write them down, even if they don't make any sense to you. I hope you'll be able to discuss them with your therapist or with any professionals. We'm here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you need or want. You know we won't judge you. I promise you that. You're a wonderful person. Stay strong, Dnester. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Try to hang on. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this