hi guys.. well, thanks for replying at all in the first place, guess there are some readers among us ...that was more like an review of it all though Yes, it is only now when i feel much better (than for example a year ago) that i've seriously started considering therapy. I think in those bad times i didn't really have a realistic image of it. Now i can understand that it's supposed to be someone just helping u to find some answers... Or now i see the point of it... if u understand what i mean...

wants2fly i think i might have to read through your post a few more times before i can fully understand it I'm only an imperfect fin

isolated, I'm actually quite eased with guys, most of my few friends are men, it's just the sex part that i'm scared to death of. Because of having it like i had it really means just something cold and vicious to me ...if anyone has any advice how to get over it and like start fresh or something i would gladly here it... since i don't think a guy that wants to live in total selibacy exists and i don't want to do something that makes me feel as worthless as that does...

Yeah, poppet, i think i can express myself better with the smileys, since my skills with the language are limited