Thanks for sharing your concern here on PC, huckleberrysawyer. I see this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central. One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest would be the coping with emotions forum. Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/coping-with-emotions/

You may also find the depression & anxiety forums to be of interest:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/depression/

https://forums.psychcentral.com/anxi...c-and-phobias/

I'm sorry you are struggling with so much anger. Anger is something I've had quite a bit of experience with over the years as well. The first link below is to an article by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D. from Psych Central's archives, on the subject of anger management. The article provides links to a number of additional articles on the subject. The second link is to an anger management blog here on PC. Some of the articles listed there may be of interest as well:

Anger Management & Coping with Angry Feelings - Psych Central

Anger Management | A blog helping you to better manage your angry feelings.

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.