How exciting that you know what you like to do other than what your college degree was all about. Finding what you enjoy doing is the most important thing.....forcing yourself to work where you are miserable....is a horrible existence.

I know I was a music major....for my AA degree. I loved playing my flute but not being a music teacher (hard to teach kids when you don't really care for kids....not a good combination). Preforming professionally required more talent than I had...I realized that when I was practicing 8 hours a day & just not getting anywhere.

I changed to Computer Science & Accounting Information Systems. I was always good at learning & solving problems......so programming computers fit my abilities.....I was able to hold onto that career for 15 years.....then that fell apart.

When I lost that career, I was totally lost.....I didn't have a passion that would earn me any money....all my passions cost me money...nothing to earn anything with. Horses...costly. I got into my american eskimo dogs (showing...breeding)...another costly situation. My music was a hobby & I still wasn't going to be any better than I was before at it.

Depression set in horribly......I think the worst part was that I just couldn't ALLOW MYSELF to think of any other possibilities to change what I was doing for work. I was so caught up in what I wasn't able to do anymore (I really loved the engineering career) that I just couldn't see anything other than that & my technical training was out of date & I just couldn't get caught up. I felt so lost & just staying home & being a housewife went against everything I had focused on all my life....so even though I enjoyed that....it wasn't fulfilling. I loved doing crafts....I have half finished crafts all over the house of all kinds....from needle point to beading jewelry.....but that all costs money too. I just couldn't find anything that I could make money out of....especially not at the level I was making as an engineer to support the hobbys I loved to do. It seemed like a vicious circle that just wouldn't end.....so suicidal attempts became my hoped for solution.

I was lucky in that I qualified for disability immediately, so I always had some level of income to provide, but it still wasn't like having something you love doing....that you get up everyday & want to live the day for because you LOVE what you are doing. Luckily, 14 years later, leaving my husband with a huge move across the country to a state where I knew no one & I have no family after my Mother died 3 years ago.

I have learned that I LOVE my life & everything that comes to me everyday there is something exciting.....so just living is exciting.....it will be much more peaceful once I finally get divorced.....but I love my alone life with my doggies....not only that, but I am finding out that where I live, there is always something that I can earn a little bit of money doing to help with my situation.

I am now OPEN to LIVE & OPEN to LOVE life.....I think that is the KEY to happiness is finding what which you love & allowing yourself to find those things that make you happy.

It is so wonderful that you have found what you LOVE to do & know what you enjoy in your life.....many people go a lifetime without that knowing that kind of fulfilling feeling of doing what you LOVE.

I am excited for you & happy that your future will have what you LOVE in it. With those feelings, you will never regret the change in the overall picture of your life.
Debbie