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Originally Posted by MoxieDoxie
He says it is an emotional flashback but we talk about it as the child part that I have seen living in a dark basement room, disheveled and covered in tar. When it takes me over I am in dire straights. Suicidal, self harm, depressed, desperate. I never realized it was a part. Anyway when I go into session he makes me go check in on it. See if perhaps it needs something like coloring books or food or asks me to clean it up, give the room a bed. When I link up with it in my head I feel the heaviness, the pressure behind the eyes, floaty all that. When I do what he says and and do these nurturing things it actually helps calm things down.
I don’t know what to make of all this. To me I just think it is the nurturing and connection I receive from T that actually makes me feel better.
Is this really PTSD or is it a dissociated part and part of DID?
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There are different schools of thought about parts and what they mean. My T does EMDR which means that she veiws parts through the structural dissociation lens. In PTSD structural dissociation has a normal part that deals with daily life and an emotional part that carries the trauma. The more trauma and dissociation there are the more emotional parts there arem up to full DID.
It doesn't really matter "label" is applied, you can treat all dissociated parts whether full alters or simple split off emotional parts as in PTSD in the same way. The label isn't important, its finding ways to bring the parts together that matters.
It is really important that
you find ways to help the hurting part/s within you. That's what needs to happen in order to fully heal. Having T there to comfort hurting parts can help in the short term, but at the end of the day healing can only be complete when you yourself are able to accept and comfort all parts of yourself.
But you don't have to be able to do that immeidately. It takes a lot of time to work on that. And don't feel bad for not being able to do it yet. Nobody can be expected to do something they don't have the skills to do yet! If it feels completely overwhelming and unachievable, remember that;'s because you haven't learned how yet. Baby steps.