I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Momof2since2004 It's hard to cope with loneliness. I understand how you feel. I agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could. Do you have any hobbies? What do you like to do in your free time? I'd suggest to just find something that you like to do. Perhaps you could try to make some friends. That way you wouldn't feel so lonely perhaps. I hope you'll be able to find someone to talk to. Perhaps you could try some online sites like meetup.com or something similar. I've heard lots of people making some friend that way. Perhaps it's worth looking into it. We're here for you as well if you need it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. You know we won't judge you. I promise you that. You're a wonderful person. Stay strong, Momof2since2004. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this