I've been feeling really down and lonely lately and I'm really dissatisfied with my life. I don't have any friends and I'm hesitant to make any new ones because of social anxiety and because I feel like I'm too high maintenance due to my depression and any new friends would just reject me as they have in the past. I spend a lot of time feeling really left out and like I'm really missing out on what life has to offer. When I do make friends I find it almost impossible to keep the relationship because I'm terrified of calling and texting people. I never know what to say and some days my depression has me so exhausted I simply don't have the energy. I'm also really overweight which makes me self-conscious about meeting people. Even posting things online like this feels frightening. I joined this forum about 3 years ago and haven't posted anything since because I've been too uncomfortable. I'm posting this because I really need to connect with other people.