I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, ACrystalGem I believe it is possible to unravel all of the part of you that came from abuse, but it does take time and work. However it seems like you're making progress already. Good for you! Be proud of yourself for that. Just keep working on it. It's definitely worth it. Once you're able to unravel all of this, you'll be able to get through all of this and hopefully thing will get better for you. You'll be able to keep healthier relationships, hopefully. Just try to do your best. That's all you can do after all. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this