For me is been a struggle to accept that I will never understand her motivations, or how she thought about what she did. There are times I process events with my current therapist, and realize I know more than I think I do. When I list all the things she did, like for the complaint I submitted, the facts reveal not necessarily a predator, but someone seeking what she wanted, even if it was at the expense of her ethics, her practice and my wellbeing. I don't think I was so much prey for her as good "raw material" that she could use to play a role in her fantasy life.

She eventually realized she miscalculated. I don't mold as well as she thought.