Struggling. Barely made it through class yesterday. Exhausted, in pain and depressed. I think I got a few things out of it, but I’m very worried I won’t make it through the the semester, mostly due to the physical issues. It is hard to study with a foggy brain and hard to drive and sit through class with the physical exhaustion and pain. I can only hope this is a flare up that passes soon.

The depression is also a concern. Less about study and more about fear of it turning mixed and severe as it often has before. I’m scared. Hoping this is a small crash after hypomania and I will revert to stable. It just hurts so much. I am irritable too. Want to punch things. Seeing T today and pdoc tomorrow. I’m scared of being honest. My pills are already held at the chemist. If I talk of harming myself in other ways I may be put IP.