I’m still in good spirits despite being in intense pain. Seems like morning is when my back spasms but after I lay on the heating pad for awhile and take my muscle relaxer it seems to loosen up. I’m going on o call HR tomorrow and see if I am eligible for disability or at least fmla. I’m also going to tell my doctor on Monday to quit ****ing around with injections and give me a referral for surgery. I’m terrified of surgery but I need my life back. I don’t want to end up permanently disabled. I’m already bored af.

RS has been so good to me. He took off work to drive me to my appointment yesterday. Today he fixed my door, put a new chain lock on, and put up a light over the sink because I had previously complained it was too dark to do dishes at night. He’s so thoughtful. He also bought me the heating pad on Sunday after the ER doc recommended it. He treats me so well for someone I’ve only been seeing for three and half months. I am thankful to have him in my life.