The blame here belongs entirely with the people who broke into your car and parents home, not you. I know it's hard to see that right now, but I hope reading those words will help it sink in. You had no way of knowing your car would be broken in to and no way of foreseeing the house break in following. In fact, you dont even know the two are related.

From what you have written, you fear your parents for a reason. Do not beat yourself up for lying if it's what you felt you needed to do in the moment to protect yourself. Even if you were honest, no one would assume that a house break in would follow a car break in. It just happened.

You need to try to slow down your mind. Playing the "what if" game is self torture. I've been there. Its one more trick mental illness uses to break us down. You have to remember, just because you think it, that doesnt make it true. You are not a terrible person. You are the victim of a crime and none of it is your fault.

*hugs*