Thank you for your continuous support. i said PC is helping a lot.

Im at my parents for the night. its so much better here, i almost cant remember how bad i was feeling a few hours ago. or a few days ago.
i saw T today but it didnt help much. she listened, but at the end of the session she rushed me out of the door. im not sure she got how bad i was feeling.
tomorrow im seeing ex T. i know he will calm me down and i'll feel better for a few hours at least.
today i also found out im going to keep receiving the invalidity pension for a few years. it gives me enough to be able to work only part time if i want it.
Thank you all for your support. its helping a lot.