t asked me how I'm doing. I said a lil better past few days. t and I talked about my visit at my mom's. he said that it sounds disturbing and anyone would be freaked out given the circumstances and the history. we started to play a game called Sequence. t kicked my *** both times. I told T that baby t s hair is turning red. t said I know! I said he's so cute. t said could you imagine hurting a small baby like that. I said no!!! I don't even want to. t said something about showing compassion to my younger self. I told t the stuff that happened to me in the past feels like it happened to other people. like I watched it in a movie. I don't relate to the me back then at all. t said that is what dissociation is. he said I've blocked it out all, and I need to reconnect to that person from back then, and show them compassion. I said that seems painful. t said yeah. he said it comes back in waves right now and it overwhelms me.

we just played the game and talked abt it for a while. it was sort of quiet. I said say something! t quickly said 'something'.

t said what do you want to talk about. I said I dunno. t asked me about the voices. he asked why I think they're still here. I said stress. I told t about the flashbacks that feel like someone is touching me. and how I didn't know if it was hallucinations or what. t asked has it gotten worse? I said the past few days have been better. t asked if taking prns helps and I said yes but they make me sleepy. so when I get home from work I take one and just fall asleep. I'm either sleeping or working. I told t I haven't been showering much either... once a week. t said my nervous system is overloaded and its too much too fast. he said I need to take a break and find nice distractions. I told t I'm gonna play the sims after our appointment. he asked me abt my sims game. he smiled. we talked some about the residential program we met at.. t wants to recreate it but in an outpatient setting. t has bought a big new house for his practice. they are moving there soon

I asked t for a hug and we hugged